There are times when you see your entire world collapsing around you and you know that isn’t just a depressed world view but a irrefutable fact. I am there. But sometimes all it takes to give you a high on a very low flying life situation is just knowing that someone thinks about you at 4 a.m. every morning. That doesn’t change anything about my life and what it is all about- buts its like having saccharine and vodka running through your veins. Maybe the happiness is irrational, but maybe I need to feel it. I do. And boy! do I like it….