I’ve been asking myself this question several times lately.
I now have an excellent job. I do something that I thought I always wanted to do. I am paid much better than anyone else my age, I also have the luxury of living at home with hot food on the table when I come back from work. And despite these obviously happy circumstances my life seems to be slowly twisting itself around in a spiral.
I decided to chase the good life and I don’t regret it. And yet, maybe the pursuit of the good life is not liked enough by people around me. I can’t seem to able to communicate anymore — conversations are running out, drying up before they begin. I thought I outdid myself in ‘being with’ but it never seems enough. Its like Alice, running and running to stay in one place — only in addition I see stuff I care about about slipping through my fingers.
I look back and I think- is it worth it and am I worth it? What does one have left to say when they are told that they got lucky, its all a chance – these successes they have nothing to do with ability.
Perhaps now is when I should call it quits.